It's alright to dream

January 7, 2015

I am currently sitting in this restaurant called “Lorenzo’s Way” in Greenbelt 5.

It’s my first time eating here and I am quite excited to eat.

Yeah, late lunch. J

I bought something from H&M, I bought sweatpants and I also bought something for my face from Landmark.

I am thinking about graduation and where I am going to be after college. I worry a lot about my future, but sometimes its okay not to think about what’s going to happen. You have to live a little and see how your future has in store for you.

That’s what I am very excited about.

I am always excited for what my future has in store for me. I don’t want to sound redundant but you know it’s true.

When I was a kid, I wanted to be so many things and dream of becoming someone big. I still do, though, don’t get me wrong. I have so many dreams in life and I wish that I could make them come true all at once.

Sadly, I can’t.

Things I want to be:

Ø  Director

Ø  Blogger

Ø  Youtuber

Ø  Author

Ø  Intern for WWE

Ø  Actress

Ø  Singer

Some quotes for you and me:

“Be the best version of you.” –Zoe Sugg

Goal: Be happy with what you have, alright?

Speak up

January 6, 2015

I am going to be honest with you guys here.

As cliché as it sounds, but I have been a victim of bullying. At least in someone’s life they have been bullied. I was verbally bullied; I was called so many names.

Background check: I come from an exclusive school for girls.

Many things can happen, like, so much in many right and wrong ways.

Back to the point, the one thing that I hated during high school was when I was called stalker. I bet you’re asking why, well, I was in 2^nd year high school I had this huge crush on a girl who was in the higher batch than I was. (She was in 3^rd year and I was in 2^nd year at that time)

Anyway, when she knew that I had a crush on her she made sure that my life was a living hell and let me tell you how much I hated. I didn’t want to go to school at all and I didn’t want to see my classmates because they knew how much I liked knowing them they’ll just tease me.

I was called a stalker because wherever she was, I was there, it wasn’t my fault because the school that we were both in was small and, of course, I couldn’t do anything about it really. She was also in the basketball team and her coach told the principal that I was stalker but I really wasn’t.

The only thing I did wrong was that I liked to her much that it caused me pain that was it.

There’s nothing

It’s something I don’t want to remember because it hurt me too much.

I started cutting myself, it’s a bad thing to do but I was just 14 or 15 at that time. She graduated the year 2012 and I was 16.

There’s something that I am very grateful for, it’s that I became a better person.

Goal: Stand up for yourself. Face your battles and don’t give up just because you’re going through a tough time.

Nervous feelings

January 5,2015

It’s already the 5^th day of the New Year and I feel like time has been going so fast.

Anyway, I want to talk about school. It’s a weird topic to talk about but since we’re going back to school in days or few weeks, I felt like I should be talking about it.

So I come back to school in a week or so and I am so nervous because I have no idea who my professors are going to be. The questions come flooding in my mind all the time every new term, “Are they going to be nice? If they are nice, are they going to be nice enough to give me a high grade? If they’re not nice, well then I am doomed.”

I exert so much effort in my studies and in the end; all I get is bad failing grade. To be honest, it hurts like hell. I have perfect attendance and I pass everything but I get a bad grade in the end because they deem me a failing student.

That alone hurts me.

It hurts me because I am perfect in my attendance even if I am poor in recitation and/or class participation. I pass my assignments on time and I also pass my term papers on time. I ask my professors if I am having a hard time.

Since it is the New Year, I am going to have a fresh start. I was able to do that in the beginning of 2014, but by the time 2014 was going to end. It went downhill.

I mean, there are going to be times where majority of the blame is going to be on me and there is nothing I can do now because that’s in the past now, right?

Goal: Do better. Do something everyday that brings you closer to your goals. If you don’t have you want; work harder. Dreams don’t work unless you do. Nobody said it was easy. Positivity is the key.

Lets talk about interests

January 4, 2015

It’s going to sound weird but I have taken interest in crime.

I have been getting hooked on Crime shows and real-life murder cases that I have decided after college I would take up Criminology or Forensics for a one-year course.

I started watching CSI and I have been starting to watching shows related to crime and murder. It’s really interesting because it’s cool how they get DNA out of a small piece of evidence found in the crime scene.

I have also started watching videos on YouTube about actual cases and some of the cases show the actual crime photos of the murders. Let me tell you how disturbing some of the pictures are.

The only reason why I have decided to take up Criminology or Forensics after college, it’s because I want to bring justice to the victim and their family.

These victims did die for nothing because they just felt like they should die.

One of my inspirations is Lt. Joe Kenda. He has solved over 400 cases and that has inspired me to push harder in the course that I am in. Nothing is easy and I am determined to finish college.

There are going to be times where you feel so happy and of course, there are going to be the craziest and shit moments in life. I have so much shitty moments but that’s not going to take its toll on me.

I have always been a warrior and a survivor. It’s something I’m willing to be until I die. I have also been a fighter and I’m known as someone who never backs down on a fight.

I stay happy in front of people but there are going to be times where I will break down in front of you. Y’all might think I’m crying for no reason but really, there’s a reason.

Goal: Stay happy and positive as much as you can. Treasure the people in your life because you might not know when they’re going to be taken away from you.

Disrespect my people, you disrespect me.

January 3, 2015

I sounded just like Bo Dallas from WWE yesterday but he has point and also I do not work for WWE, yet.

It’s a dream of mine to work for the company.

I grew up watching WWE with my brother, the two of us would bond over the wrestlers we watched and looked up to. In case you’re wondering who are my favorite wrestlers and divas are, well then, it’s going to be a long list.

I’m just going to say who they are, hold on tightly though it’s gonna be long. John Cena, Trish Stratus, Lita, Jeff Hardy, Matt Hardy, Triple H, Shawn Michaels, Rey Mysterio, Eddie Guerrero, Roman Reigns, Seth Rollins, Natayla, AJ Lee, CM Punk, Dean Ambrose, Dolph Ziggler, Randy Orton. I have so many others that I would save y’all from actually reading from a long list.

This leads me to the topic that I am very sensitive about. I am someone who supports the LGBTQ Community and their rights. I have been a supporter since 4^th year high school.

Let me tell you one thing, honey.

1.                 When you see a girl play with trucks, robots and finds girls pretty doesn’t make her LESBIAN.I come from an exclusive school of girls and I grew up watching boys AND girls wrestle for a damn living. I enjoy watching it, I still do and I actually watch it ‘til now.

2.                 When you see a boy play with Barbie dolls and girl things doesn’t absolutely   make him GAY.  Personally, I have gay friends and I love them for who they are. Don’t judge them because they might not be comfortable coming out of the closet.

Goal: Talk to them first before actually judging them. They might need some one to actually talk to. It’ll make their day. Trust me.